Night

In the middle of the night
I go looking for that fight
I just want to hear your voice
Have you justify my choice
For I keep running away
Keep deciding to live this way
And in the middle of the night
These feelings I know are not right
But I just want to see your eyes
For you see past my disguise
The dream of just one more kiss
As my mind repeats all this
But I hope the middle of tonight
I'll stop going looking for that fight

One

One more chance
One more glance
Just one more dance
One more kiss
One more attempt at bliss
Just one more miss
One more day
One more fray
Just one more stay
Just once more
The choice of here or the door
One more mistake
One more time to fake

The choice of here or the door
I have this choice once more
The possibilities of what I'd miss
For there could be one more kiss
That one more true feeling of bliss
For with that one glance
I know maybe I'd get one more chance
And go back to our one broken dance
We could have just one more day
The one decision again for me to stay
I could go through that door
But there are things I once more could explore
But with that one more try
I'm scared I once more may want to die
So this one more time I'll just say goodbye

Sleep

In your arms I don't need sleep
Reality of this I'd rather keep
For in your arms we get lost together
Just getting so lost in each other
This feeling of love it seems
Makes me never need to dream
So we could just stay up all night
Just stay up to feel this feeling of right
Because you're all I'll ever need
I'll follow if you can lead
For this moment I want to keep
I couldn't possibly want any sleep

Unfair

Unfair

Don't care

Can't share

Heart tear

Can't bare

No pair

Not there

Just stare

No air

Not rare

Don't dare

Hits

Unexpectedly it hits hard
The memories that have scarred
The hidden
These words that are forbidden:
That once again I have discovered
That maybe I haven't yet recovered
I do feel the happiness of the without
The sanity I lost throughout
But as I continue to try and forget
With no single ounce of regret
The memories still hit
The realizations of what I miss

Drinking

I've been drinking myself blind
Drinking to see what I can find
When I let myself feel
All the emotions that I know to be real
When I let my walls come down
When the truth finally comes around
Because I always have these lies upon lies
They are here to cover these broken eyes
That I use to keep myself sane
To keep me away from all your pain
So I've been drinking myself blind
To see what's hidden inside this mind

React

How should I have reacted?
It was my life you impacted
You can keep looking away
I know you couldn't help but stray
But am I to keep on pretending
As you keep on doing your defending
As you act like I was nothing
When you made this my everything
I see through that whole act
Sure I know how you want me to react
To hide myself away
As all you do is stray
But that would let you feel good
Make you feel less misunderstood
But stop expecting that out of me
I won't be who you want me to be
Because this is my life you try to impact
My life I've managed to keep intact

Mister

Mister unbroken
Mister undamaged
What can you see?
Can't relate to me
I have these demons
I have these tears
From dark stories
Of dark stories
So mister unbitter
Mister uncomplicated
Why do you want me?
Nothing good here to see
Just dark anger
Of dark anger
You're mister unbelievable
Mister unforgettable
You don't know me
Should be afraid of what you see

Everything

Everything I want to be
Is to simply be free
I want to fly
Maybe I can if I try
Everything I want is true
It's to be rid of you
Out of my mind
Myself to find
Everything I want to be
Is to have happiness as all I see

You make me :)

Worth being found

"Somewhere in this world is someone who will see you; good as well as bad and not bat an eye. They will care just as much and still think you're perfect, anyone else who doesn't isn't worth being found."

 

 I have awesome friends.

Cupid

In our story there was no bow
I didn't get shot with an arrow
For in his hands he held a gun
I was left with no time to run
For cupid couldn't have been less true
It has his bullet that went straight through
It tore apart this heart
Tore it from the very start
I can't believe anymore
Haven't since it went through my core
We can't be that fairy tale dream
For with a bullet there's no love to be seen

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder
Sometimes I ponder
Sometimes I wish
And sometimes I want

Sometimes I wonder
And sometimes I ponder
That maybe we weren't all wrong
That maybe in the wrongness was were I belonged
Where I could stay used
Continually be abused
Maybe that's where I felt right
Where every day I was meant to fight
Sometimes I wish
And sometimes I want
For you to maybe be the one
For it to maybe have not been undone

Compare

True or false
Right or wrong
In words or song
Yes or no
Stay or go
Love and hate
Luck or fate
Forget and forgive
Die or live
Compare and contrast
Slow or fast
Present or past
Start and end
Keep or lend
Whispers and screams
Reality and dreams
Nothing is as it seems
Strong or weak
Hide and seek
Blind or can see
All I am is me

Property

How can I still feel like your property
Even when you were so wrong for me
When you left be broken and confused
Left me to feel used
Like I didn't deserve any better
You were supposed to be my shelter
To keep me safe from the storm
But your arms never kept me warm
Your cold was always too much to bare
Was way to cruel to share
But I'm stronger than that cold you see
I'm becoming strong enough not to be your property