White Beaches

When did we get so messed up
So completely fucked up
Can't find our way back
Can't get off this wrong track
To go back to the day
To when I could've chosen another way
But I took your hand
For you were my dream of white beaches
Of white sands
But we got so messed up
So completely fucked up
You are now my dream of dark nights
Full of dark fights
Can't go back to the day
For my white beaches are now grey

Shadow

Let me sleep in your shadow
Let me slip from your mind
I'll hold all your darkness
See past all the pain
Just sing a love song
I'll pretend it's for me
As I fall in your shadow
As I'm pushed from your mind

Game

Rip my heart out of my chest
Do what you do best
Make me feel useless
Make me feel used
In this game you play
You obviously won
So in this game you play
I'm obviously done
Because you make me feel destroyed
Because I've always only been your toy
You wanted to feel better
And you wanted to feel right
So I get to be damaged just out of sight
Now rip my heart out of my chest
And do what you do best
And fuck you
Fuck everything you do

Song

You and your broken song
Taught me the lesson that I don't belong
I wanted to be part of your words
I wanted to be the part that was heard
Because I've known it by heart all along
Every line of every song
I wanted to sing the chorus
Make the melody endless
But you and your broken song
Decided that my harmony was all wrong
Decided that I was never meant to belong

Circles

It's like we're dancing
In these circles there's no advancing
It's who we are
Part of our scar
One step forward
Two steps back
Back to what we lack
In our predictability
Our complete simplicity
It's just what we do
It's our one, two...
Our steps forward
Our steps back
Our repetition on this wrong track

Puppet

Back to where we started
Like we never parted
Thought this time would be different
But you're still distant
Thought things would have changed
Some things rearranged
But I'm still a puppet
And I still hate it

Rain

In the rain I scream
You pretend not to see the tears
That I have wasted years
In the rain I explain
You pretend not to understand
All that was unplanned
In the rain I breakdown
You pretend not to care
How exactly is that fair?

Uncover

You look past the words I have spoken
Start to wonder if I'm broken
I say some words
As if I haven't been heard
But you look into my eyes
And uncover the many lies

I say some words
Cover what is unheard
What resides in my eyes
All the continuos lies
Everything I've spoken
Covers that I am broken

Forbidden

Skeletons in your closet
Scars with no limit 
Pains hidden
Stories Forbidden
Don't say a word
No lies to be heard

Remind

You remind me I'm not broken
I smile at the words you have spoken
For you will hold me while cry
Will never say goodbye
For you see into my soul
Everything you do makes me whole

Lost

I find my centre with you
I am lost in this dream
Never waking
Illusions I've made
To keep me from the pain
Close my eyes
Ignore the shaking
I can't remain
I'll pretend for now
Before I question how
I find my pain with you
I am lost in this extreme

Creates

I scream and yell
Find my own personal hell
But you one day you'll see
That person was never me
I've made so many mistakes
It's the person the pain creates

Drown

Life turns upside down
This is how it feels to drown
How can you feel so much pain?
We're the ones that will remain
With our hearts broken
Your decisions unforgiven
Don't leave
We'll help you grieve
We'll hold your hand
Be where you can land
Lean on us
We're who you can trust

Adore

So much affection
In our self destruction
Our untamed emotion
I gave you the blade
Made the cut that won't fade
So don't place the blame
Don't feel the shame
Just whisper my name
Twist that knife a little more
This is the pain I adore

Control

All the disappointment
In all the resentment
In the pain and suffering
I'm always recovering
From all the fighting
We seem to be reciting
These words I keep writing
I go looking for attention
Just to get deception
But with all this pain
You have left a stain
That shall stay on my soul
You're the one in control

Touching

I'll just hide
All the times I cried
All the times you touched me
I'll never be free
You make me want you
I may be a fool
But life can't be that cruel
I'll just believe
For later I'll grieve
Over the mistakes
That you touching me creates

Dream

I want to dance
To dream of romance
To see what I can find
When I leave the pain behind
I want to sing
Be excited for what the future brings
For what we can find
When the world is kind

Lack

I start to lie
I'm too tired to try
I don't love you
I've never been true
Don't react
It's just a fact
I can't go back
To what we lack

Blind

Now or never
Just take me there
Take me anywhere
I'll follow blind
The truth to find
In the lies
All the goodbyes
Now or never
Leave me here
Won't shed a tear

Pause

I don't hurt too bad anymore
Not as much pain as before
I don't focus on the past
For it was never going to last
Now I see things clearly
I did love you dearly
I won't live in regret
But I won't ever forget
That the pain that you cause
Is capable of putting my life on pause

For my Pinata

Give me 3 words:
Dinosaur. Cabbage Patch. Lego.


Touch me to my core
Be my dinosaur
Roam wild and free
You're everything I see
Be my cabbage patch
It's my heart you catch
You put me together
Like Lego... forever

Fists

Booze in your veins
The memories remain
Of the pain in my cheek
Blood starting to leak
To the floor
Get up and leave
I won't come back
For I could react
I have fists of my own
I may be alone
But the memories remain
Of you causing me pain

Locked

I've locked it away
And now it'll stay
Trapped in my head
Of how things have led
To this moment in time
Take each step at a climb
For if I fall down
I know I will drown
In the thoughts and decisions
Dreams and visions
Of the way it could be
The world I'd like to see

Hide

You hide your fears
But I see the tears
I know of your pains
It's all that remains
Of you
You hide the tears
But I see your fears
I know of your past
A shadows been cast
Over you

Remain

In my life there is
An endless fight
The darkest of night
No strength to find
For I was too blind
The choice was my choice
The mistake my mistake
But decisions made
Will never fade
For I can't forgive
That you didn't live
In my heart there is
An endless pain
For there you remain

Smoke

While I smoke
You take a toke
Your vision becomes blurred
My words are unheard
For with the drugs
Along come the shrugs
Because you don't care
You don't need to share
Your thoughts or decisions
You have provisions
While I smoke
Ignored are the words that I spoke
Your vision becomes blurred
I wish my pain could be cured
But with your drugs
That fill your lungs
Your heart you can't bare
Nothing can be fair.

Stains

Give you my heart to hold
Stop it from being cold
For all I feel is raw
For all that I saw
Are the stains on your sheets
As your heart beats
Just look me in the eye
As I start to cry
When I explain my dreams
For right now it seems
That your demons control
Every part of your soul
So I will feel cold
While it's my heart that you hold

Twisting

You do your part
In twisting my heart
It makes you feel better
More together
For what you were breaking
Was yours for the taking
So why should I complain
When I went looking for pain
Now I'll do my part
In fixing your heart

Lessons

Stripped and exposed
Cold to the bone
But do you see
My heart on my sleeve?
That our shattered dreams grieve?
All this I've shown
Yet it's completely unknown
That in my soul
There are questions of questions
Of why I learnt these lessons
But you don't see
You have stripped, you have exposed
It's been you that has made me cold

White Residue

Shut out, cut out
You've numbed me to my core
Left only with lies
I open my eyes
To the blank stares that leave me cold
I see you
You're stressed out, have missed out
There could have so much more
Than your black heart with it's black hole
The White Residue stains your soul